I’m a little late (it’s only been a few days! come on!) but I just had to welcome 2018 on my very first blog post this year! 2018 you’re more than welcome!
Looking back, 2017 was a full year. Full of moments, both good and bad, full of any kind of feelings and even some really “dark days” at the end of it. I went on my first vacation ever, started a blog, reunited and started talking with my father after 7 years, found an ideal job for me right now, started discovering who I really am, went through depression once again… But you know what? I wouldn’t change a single thing.
I feel that this year made me grow… I’ve learned so many things… So many life lessons. I think this is normal when you grow, isn’t it? Adulthood is weird… I don’t feel exactly an adult yet, even though I’m 22 years old. But I don’t feel like a teen also… I guess I’m a Millenial (I heard this a few times over the internet). And every year that goes by, I feel that I’m learning so many things. But 2017 was the year that I’ve learned the most and finally started the journey of discovering myself. Like why am I feeling like this, why am I thinking that… And this is pretty amazing.
The last days of 2017 I was in a really bad mood. As the year was coming to an end, I had that bittersweet feeling… I was kinda sad that 2017 was over, but I was also grateful for the happy moments and I was praying for a better and more positive 2018. So right when the countdown started on New Year’s Eve, my heart started to beat faster. It was a weird, but kinda beautiful feeling. Until I heard “Happy New Year”. I burst into tears. I just couldn’t control myself! And it was such a great feeling! I felt free… Free from all the dark thoughts, free from the worries and the demons inside my head… I remember everyone asking me why I was crying and my answer was “I’m just too happy!”. And I really was.
The next morning I woke up and I was feeling a totally different person. And this isn’t something like those “New Year, New me” resolutions. I really feel like a different person. A person who values love more than any other feeling. A person who prays more. A person who is committed to “growing” every single day.
I got a good feeling that 2018 will be a really good year… I haven’t decided on what my resolutions will be yet because they are a big deal for me… So I think I need to pick them carefully…
Also, I want to thank all of you for reading my blog. It really means so much to me! I could never imagine that people are interested in my story and what I have to say. You give me the courage to keep going, and I’m sure that 2017 wouldn’t be the same without you guys… Thank you for all the support and for all your sweet comments… I’m so blessed to have all of you guys! Promise, I’ll share more with you this year!
I’m so excited for what 2018 has to bring. I’m wishing you, from the bottom of my heart, The Merriest and Happiest 2018, full of love and full of happy moments! And remember: Let all that you do be done with love!
Lots of love, Apostolia! xx