We’re already 7 days in but I wanted to give you a proper welcome. This is my first post since like a really long time (a failed Blogtober I remember) and I wanted to address a few things before making a new clean and fresh beginning.
I always try to do a recap in my mind when a year ends, and when I’m trying to compare 2018 with 2017, I can honestly say 2018 wasn’t an easy one.
Of course, the highlights of the year was moving to my very first apartment and I’m beyond grateful for that and creating The Blogging Tribe, but other than that, it was a year that I was constantly battling with my self. Battling with my anxiety and trying to juggle a lot of things, keep up with a lot of people and most of the time I wasn’t really happy.
If I had to pick three words to describe 2018 would be “Confusing”, “Stressful” and “Unstable”.
And to be honest this is why I was absent from my blog and my social media most of the time. I felt like it was something that was making me extra stressful, so I was putting that aside.
I can say that I’m really happy 2018 is over. I’ll try to keep a few things as lessons, and I’ll forever be grateful for the joys I had this year, but I’m happy to say goodbye and hope for the best in 2019
The moment the year changed, I was sitting on my couch with John, watching the celebrations on the TV, drinking wine and eating cheese (because we decided to end the year just how WE like), I burst into tears. And they were tears of relief. I immediately felt like all these emotions and the confusion were left behind in 2018, and all that left was pure happiness and gratitude. Because it was just me and John in our apartment, and it was so simple and pure.
I already feel fresh and ready to kick start this year, but I think I’m making a few changes on this one. I’ll focus on keeping it simple and pure. We’ll see how this one goes but I got a really good feeling about 2019. You know what they say “Even after the worst storms, the sun will shine again”, and also there will be “rainbows” too so… I really can’t wait for 2019 to SHINE.
Oh no. This thing almost never works, so it’s a no for me. Instead, I’m going to focus on 3 things.
Love. The most important feeling of them all that most of the time we set aside. We’re too overwhelmed to see it and feel it because of our everyday struggles. And sometimes we don’t even show it or express it because we feel totally overwhelmed by the pressures of life and work.
Gratitude. We somehow love to focus on the negative most of the time instead of seeing the beautiful things. So this year I’m going to focus on being more grateful every single day. Because I want 2019 to be the year that I choose love and gratitude over stress.
Grow. I really want to be a different person 365 days from now and that’s why I’m focusing on becoming a better me. I want to focus on my self-care, to become more organized, to learn how to prioritize, read and generally everything that is going to make me a better human being.
2019 you look so beautiful and bright already. I hope we’re going to have some fun together! So here’s to you! A happier, healthier and full of love 2019!